Your end of year push below 👇🏾
On Friday, I slipped into bed at 4pm and told myself I was just going to work on odd ends from there.
What that looked like was scrolling on TikTok, taking a nap and then, I finally spent an hour or so reading through newsletters in my inbox, the ones I actually love to read.
By the time I got into it, really engaged and inspired, I had to stop to get ready for a night out.
And then, I felt a pang of guilt.
Why did I waste those first hours on social media, when what I truly enjoy, which is learning, reading, feeding my mind, was sitting right there the whole time, but was my last resort?
It reminded me of something that happened at the airport back in March.
I was chatting with a guy at a perfume counter. We clicked instantly about books, growth, self-development.
Then he asked to see my phone. I watched him like a hawk as he navigated the menu.
In a few taps, he pulled up my screen time and said “For someone who does what you do, this shouldn’t be what I see.”
My top 3 apps were TikTok, Instagram and iMessage. I have educational, learning, reading apps on my phone, they weren’t in the top 10. Not to mention the sheer amount of time spent on the social and messaging apps.
He wasn’t judging. He was simply holding up a mirror. I had introduced myself one way, but my screen time told another story.
And it’s true. There’s a tension between two sides of me.
One half of me is the ambitious, dialled-in Dior. She’s totally fuelled by her work and can’t get enough of it.
In fact, a podcast I listened to yesterday broke down the exact same strategy as a marketing guide I’d just paid for on Friday during my newsletter peruse. Proof that everything I need is right in front of me when I’m focused.
But the other half? She’s scrolling TikTok senselessly, seeking solace in distraction.
Telling herself it’s just a ‘little bit’, when actually those slips are happening more often than I want to admit.
The difference between those two sides of me is in where I put my attention.
I’m dialled in when I choose to be dialled in. I’m distracted when I choose to be distracted. It’s my CHOICE!
So, based on this, here’s our push for October. To work on reclaiming our attention, so we can claim MORE of the versions of ourselves we love being. For me, that’s ‘dialled in Dior’.
Ask yourself, if I could focus my attention, for extended periods of time, in the areas that matter most who would I be by December?
And more importantly, what would I no longer be delaying?
What would happen if I rerouted my energy from distractions and into my future self’s direction?
Because our screen time may be hidden from everyone else, but it’s not invisible our results.
(P.S Feel free to send me a screenshot of my screen time today! And then again in December, with the goal to cut it in half.)
Until next Sunday,
Dior xx